Friday, January 1, 2010
thoughts from Debra E. Marvin
No Fear? You can't be serious!
Do you ever wonder what it is about humans that God finds most frustrating? I’m not doubting His love and pleasure in us. I do think, however, that fear is our most limiting factor. I can encourage someone else through a tough time with every confidence but do I win my own battles with fears and worries as well? No.
This week the Inkies have been talking about Fear. I don’t know what I can add to it and I wish I had the magic answer. I thought of sharing my deepest fear--but I was afraid. Duh.
I’ll list some general ones:
Fear of debilitating illness or disease in ourselves or our loved ones, or their deaths.
Fear of financial failure and loss of comforts
Fear of embarrassment, ridicule, loss of control
Fear of doing something that is unpleasant and takes us out of her comfort zone
Fear of man – concern more for what others think of us than for telling them the truth of Christ’s redemptive love.
Fear of losing unsaved loved ones and knowing we failed them by our inactivity.
Mine are in there. Are yours?
Today is my mother’s birthday. Yes, she's the New Year's Baby. But she won't remember.
She is 82 today and for the first time in her life she is living apart from her family. She lived with her parents till she was married and at the time of my father’s death they were living with me. But my mother has Alzheimer’s and now lives in a special care unit in a nursing home. Her mother had the same exact history. I’ve broken the tradition because I . . . now live alone. Will that break the pattern? Of course not.
I have no fear of living alone, but I used to fear this debilitating disease.
I don’t anymore. I can’t.
I prepare myself and my children and hope that I take after my dad’s side of the family or that the Lord comes before I turn 80 or that something else takes me there sooner.
If I lived in fear of it, I’d lose all ability to enjoy what I have now and I know that God is in control.
By the way, getting my mother into a place where she is happy and safe was a miracle.
Why can’t I put all my other fears aside as easily?
My fears are never from lack of trust in God, but come from my own inadequacies. Ways I failed my family and friends. Fears that I did a disservice to them. So I have to put all my trust in a God who can work around me, in spite of me and that maybe I can still be of use to Him.
Oh. Forgot one. Snakes. Garden snakes don’t frighten me but I have a knees-turn-to-jelly fear of big snakes. I used to have recurring nightmares about anacondas.
Fear Not but Behold, I bring you tidings of great Joy. A savior born that is Christ the Lord.
Behold, as in LOOK AT THIS Savior, NOT THAT. Not that snake, or that disease or that insecurity.
2 Timothy 1:7
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
One of our Seekerville Friends, Glynna Kaye, offered this and I'm borrowing it: FEAR stands for False Evidence Appearing Real. Don't waste your time fearing the unknown or worrying over what may never happen. Cling to the truth.
Happy New Year from Inktropolis. We've been blessed getting to know each other better and getting to know our online friends and followers. We look forward to an amazing 2010!