It is my sincerest honor and pleasure to bring to you debut author, Susie Finkbeiner. I acquired and edited her wonderful novel, Paint Chips, for WhiteFire Publishing. It is a beautiful story of hope and healing, and I hope you all will check it out. ~ Dina Sleiman
I
hate driving in the winter. There. I’ve said it. As a Michigan native, it is shameful
to fear driving on icy roads in white-out conditions. I just cannot seem to
keep my mind from constructing all the “worst case scenarios”.
The
thoughts that I allow to work into anxiety are worse than the actual snow and
ice. They consume me, causing me to forget who is in control of the wind and
the waves, the ice and the snow.
In
my novel “Paint Chips”, Cora considers the various storms she has weathered
throughout her life. She doesn’t understand why God allowed her to suffer. When
recalling the story of Jesus calming the storm (Mark 4:35-41), she stops short
of the end.
She
remembers that Jesus and His disciples were on a boat and that Jesus slept through
a deadly storm. That the disciples feared for their lives. That they cried out,
asking Jesus if He cared that they were about to drown.
Somehow,
through her hardships and loss, Cora forgot that Jesus woke. That He calmed the
storm. That the disciples stood in awe of this God-man who could command the
wind and the waves by the sound of His voice. She forgot that Jesus cared for
His disciples.
When
I allow my imagination to formulate those “worst case scenarios”, I have
forgotten as well. My anxiety is stuck, thinking that Jesus is sleeping,
unconcerned with me. That He is numb to my fears. I let myself feel abandoned
by Him.
However,
when I call out to Him, He is there. He shows Himself to be good and loving. To
be in command. He calms the storm. He gives me peace. Why? Because He loves me.
Because He cares. His help comes in ways different and better than I could ever
imagine.
“The words of
Jesus ran through my mind.
‘Peace, be
still.’
Gladly, Jesus.
Thank you.”
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What lies beneath the layers of hurt?
Though haunted by her troubled past, Dot has found a safe haven. She has a fierce protector and a colorful collection of friends...but sometimes she wonders if her life will ever be normal again. Though college and romance await her, embracing them requires a new kind of strength--one she isn't sure she has.
Emerging from years of confusion, Cora struggles to latch hold of the sanity she needs to return to the real world. She yearns to find a place of peace...but first she must deal with the ghosts of her past.
Can this mother and daughter overcome abuse, betrayal, abandonment, and the horrors of sexual trafficking, and make it back into each others arms? Facing the past is never easy. But as they chip away the layers, they might just find something beautiful beneath the mess.
Though haunted by her troubled past, Dot has found a safe haven. She has a fierce protector and a colorful collection of friends...but sometimes she wonders if her life will ever be normal again. Though college and romance await her, embracing them requires a new kind of strength--one she isn't sure she has.
Emerging from years of confusion, Cora struggles to latch hold of the sanity she needs to return to the real world. She yearns to find a place of peace...but first she must deal with the ghosts of her past.
Can this mother and daughter overcome abuse, betrayal, abandonment, and the horrors of sexual trafficking, and make it back into each others arms? Facing the past is never easy. But as they chip away the layers, they might just find something beautiful beneath the mess.
Susie Finkbeiner is the writer of fiction, both short and long. Her deepest desire is that her fiction reflects the love of Jesus in a broken world. She and her husband are raising their three children in the beauty of Michigan. http://susiefinkbeiner.com/
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In what areas do you struggle with anxiety? Has Jesus ever calmed a storm in your life?